Well, today starts a new journey for me. I have come to realize that for the last almost 30 years, I haven't really known what it means to have a relationship with God. I feel like I have done pretty good at being a Christian. I go to church every time the doors are open, I am in a Bible study, I have led Bible studies, I am a class leader, blah blah blah. I am not saying those things are bad, but as Beth Moore says, I am in captivity to activity. I have been so busy serving God that I have missed Him!
So, my new quest is, "God, I want to fall in love with you! I want to learn what it means to be in relationship with you. I know that once I learn what it truly means to love you, the obedience will come naturally and it won't feel like something I have to do because I am a Christian, but it will be something I want to do because I love you so much that I can't help but obey!"
I actually can't believe I am posting all of this on my blog, but, well, I am. I have a prayer journal, but that stuff is between God and me. I really want to be able to keep track of this journey so that I can remember what I feel right now and not forget what it felt like to really fall in love with God for the first time. Please pray for me as I begin this journey. Have a truly blessed, Spirit-filled day!
1 comment:
You couldn't have said what is going on in my head more if you had actually been in my head. This has been my struggle for awhile now...probably about 2 1/2 years. I am struggling all the time...if you feel like it's something we could do, I would like to do a Bible Study during the day? Do you think that is something we could do and get somewhere with just us??? I think maybe Lea might like it? I don't know, I just know I am desparately seeking...and now, I am praying for you too...
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