Monday, June 25, 2007


I read this on a comment on the Living Proof Ministries blog and it relates directly with some things I have been struggling with. I just had to share.

MEEK ~"The meek man, is not a human mouse afflicted with a sense of his own inferiority. Rather, he may be in his moral life as bold as a lion and as strong as Samson; but he has stopped being fooled about himself. He knows he is as weak and helpless as God has declared him to be, but paradoxically, he knows at the same time that he is, in the sight of God, more important than angels. In himself, nothing; in God, everything. That is his motto. He knows well that the world will never see him as God sees him and he has stopped caring. He rests perfectly content to allow God to place His own values. He will be patient to wait for the day when everything will get its own price tag and real worth will come into its own. Then the righteous shall shine forth in the kingdom of their Father. His is willing to wait for that day.In the meantime, he will have attained a place of soul rest. As he walks on in meekness he will be happy to let God defend him. The old struggle to defend himself is over. He has found the peace which meekness brings.Then also he will get deliverance from the burden of pretense. By this I mean not hypocrisy, but the common human desire to put the best foot forward and hide from the world our real inward poverty. For sin has played many evil tricks upon us, and one has been the infusing into us of a false sense of shame." AW Tozer, The Pursuit of God.

Oh, that we could all walk in this way!

Thursday, June 21, 2007

Here we go again...

I realized today that God is getting me ready for another journey. I have no idea what this one is about or what He wants me to learn. I just know that He is calling me. I know He wants change. I know He is pursuing a relationship with me in a way that I have never known. Not that He hasn't called me before, but that I haven't felt it in the same way before. Hopefully, I will continue this journey and not drop it like I have done so many times before. And hopefully, I will be able to share my journey to help someone else.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

Happy Father's Day!

To all the fathers in my life, I hope you have had a wonderful day.

Dad, I hope you know how much I love you. There have been times that have been hard, times where I thought we would never get through. But we did. And I am so thankful. While we don't agree on a lot of things, I know that you are always there for me. You have always supported me in whatever I was doing. You are the best granddaddy in the world. You have the relationship with my kids that I always knew you would. I wouldn't take anything for that. And even if I don't always agree with you, I will always love and appreciate you and the father that you have always been. I love you.

Papa, growing up next door to you and Grandma was one of the best things that ever happened to me. I always thought it was so special that I got to run down to your house everyday. I had two homes in a way. You always were there to play with us. I remember when we would spend the night, you would give us vanilla ice cream with chocolate syrup; everytime I have that I think of you. Since I have grown up, you have been there to support me in so many ways. I don't know what I would do without you.

Stephen, where do I start? When I was younger, I always knew that I wanted to grow up, get married, have kids, and stay home with them and just be a mom. You have made that dream come true for me. You are the best dad to Jordan, Claire, Luke and Campbell. I had no idea how blessed our family would be. It is truly beyond my wildest dreams. I couldn't have been more blessed with the family that you have given me. Watching you with our kids is a blessing that I cherish everyday. Thank you for everything you do for the kids and everything you mean to them. While I am not always encouraging to you, I appreciate you more than you could possibly ever know. I am so thankful that my kids have you as a father. And I am thankful to our Father that He chose you for me. I love you.

To Stephen's dad and PaPa, you have been amazing influences on Stephen. Dad, Stephen always talks about how, eventhough you didn't live with them, they could always count on you to be there. They knew that every other Friday, you would be there to pick them up for the weekend. Stephen's favorite memories mostly come from trips with you. They knew that you loved them and that they could always count on you. PaPa, you have always been so important to Stephen. You have no idea the influence you have had on him. Your support throughout his life has made him the man he is today and I don't think I have ever thanked you for that. I love you.

I could never express the thanks deserved to the fathers in my life, but I hope you know how much I love you.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Stay tuned...

I am really thinking a lot about what I want this blog to be. At first, it started out as a way to share everything going on with the kids. Then I decided that I wanted it to be that with some spiritual thoughts as well. Then I feel like it turned to something I felt like I had to do because I don't like to quit things I start. So, why am I saying all of this? I really want my blog to have a point. I do a whole lot of thinking, but not a whole lot of sharing my thoughts. I think this is what I want to do here, but I have held back. Sometimes I am not sure if I want what I write to be seen by everyone. But that is something that I feel other people can relate to. I also want to work on being real. Not trying to hide who I am or what I feel from other people. I believe that we as Christians are good at putting on our "Christian mask" and leading others to think we are perfect. Well, I am not and I want people to know the real me. If they like me, fine. If they don't, at least I will know that I wasn't giving off a false image. All of this seems now like a lot of rambling, but stay tuned; my thoughts are getting clearer.

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Three weeks and a tooth...

Three weeks ago today my baby girl, Campbell Anne, was born. I can't believe it has already been three weeks! She is growing so fast. She gave me a little smile today. It was precious!

Claire lost her fourth tooth today. She pulled it out all by herself. She is so big! Jordan wanted me to say that his eighth tooth is about to come out. We will be eating a lot of mashed potatoes around here!

All of my kids are growing way too fast. I am trying to cherish everyday. Some days are harder than others, but they are still a blessing no matter how hard they can be sometimes! I wouldn't want to be anywhere else, except maybe the beach. HA!