I'm still here...

I feel like we haven't been doing very much lately. We took a few days off of school. We switched math programs and our new books hadn't gotten here yet. Monday, we should be able to hit the ground running.

Jordan got his expanders put in his mouth yesterday. Stephen has been calling him money mouth. He has to wear them for a year, and then he will get braces. At least that is the plan for now. He thinks it's cool right now, but that probably won't last long.

Claire is still bored being the only girl. Since Campbell can't really play with her yet, she still considers herself the only one. I try to have special girl times with her, but my time is spread thin these days.

Luke is cracking us up. He says the funniest things. I mean to record them when they happen, but I can't get here right away, so I forget what he has said. I can't believe he will be three in June. Time is flying.

Speaking of time flying, Campbell is 9 months old! Claire asked me today how much time she had until her birthday and when I said that she only had three months until she was 1, it freaked me out. I can't believe how fast this year has gone. I knew it would, but it has still surprised me.

God is teaching us, blessing us, hopefully using us, and we know He loves us. We are overwhelmed with the blessing of our family. Everyday, I stop and tell myself how blessed I am to have such beautiful, healthy, loving kids. I get to spend my days with all of them. Sometimes it's hard, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else.

Priorities

I have been thinking a lot about priorities lately. Since bringing the kids home from school, I have been really overwhelmed. I haven't done a lot of the things that I had planned. Homeschool hasn't been what I envisioned it to be. That having been said, I still feel we made the right decision. I still feel like God led us to bring them home and that He will equip me to be the mom/teacher/wife I need to be.

My point is this: Will He equip me if I don't ask Him to? I have always struggled in my prayer life. Actually, I don't have much of a prayer life. I can study my Bible all day long. I can worship all day long. My prayer life doesn't come naturally for me. So, I am wondering if the reason I am having so many struggles at home is because I don't spend time everyday praising God for who He is. I don't spend time thanking Him for everything He has done for me. I don't spend time praying for my kids and my husband. I don't spend time praying for Him to fill me with His Spirit so that I can be the woman He has called me to be. Is it any wonder I struggle? Is it any wonder I feel like I am failing? I don't think so.

God, I long to be the woman you want. I long to be the mom, homeschooler, wife, daughter, friend that you want. I want your light to shine through me. I want to be able to point others to you. I want to show my kids that having a relationship with you is unbelievable and something they don't want to live without. I have gotten away from you and I can feel it. In EVERYTHING. I want to hunger and thirst for you. I want to not be able to go through my day without praying to you and talking to you. I know that I am nothing without you. Nothing. What you did for me on the cross I'll never be able to repay you for, but I want to live my life for you. Infuse me with your spirit. Infuse me with your strength. I need you. I need you. I need you.

Keep praying...

Ashley isn't doing well. My heart breaks for that family and what they are going through right now. Please pray for them. Prayer, right now, is their only hope for their baby girl.

Ashley Adams

There is a precious little girl that desperately needs our prayers. I have been following her story for quite a while and it just breaks my heart today. Please go and pray for her.

www.ashleyadamsjournal.blogspot.com

Go vote!

Have you voted today? I was a little bummed that I didn't get a sticker. O well.

Birthday pictures

31...really?

Yes, I'm 31 today. I guess I can officially call myself an adult now. There's no denying it. Not much planned. We were going to the park today, but it's pouring down rain. O well.

Still waiting

The potential father has decided to wait until Monday to decide whether or not he wants to pursue paternity testing/challenging the adoption. In the meantime, Jillian is being released to interim care until he decides. Please keep praying for Keith and Lydia. They are having a really hard time.