Friday, October 26, 2007

Verse from the shower

God gave me a verse in the shower today. I know, weird. We are in the middle of a financial crunch. If most people saw our budget, the would say, "And why aren't you working?" But I feel like God has called me to be at home. I have look at working on paper, but the numbers don't work. After paying a babysitter/daycare for two kids, one being an infant, I wouldn't be bringing any money home. So for now, home is where God has me. Anyway, I have been thinking a lot the last couple of days about excess. Even in our struggle, we still have more than most of the world. I have a three bedroom house, with a bathroom, with clean water, with a computer, with two TVs, we have clothes, and food...I could go on and on and on. So with all of this, why do I feel like I should have more? Is it because most of my friends have more? Is it because our culture tells me I shouldn't be content with what we have? Is it because I love cokes from Sonic, so I feel like I should have one at least every other day? Seriously, it adds up.

OK. I am rambling. I guess what I want to say is that my heart's desire today is to be content. The verse God gave me is 1 Tim. 6:8. "But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that." This is what I want. Contentment. God is enough. He is all I need.


Amy said...

wow. I am struggling with the same thing right now too. I don't want to work, I want to be home. financially, its straining. Its so frustrating to see friends and others who are stay at home moms and aren't struggling...but you know , traveling europe, building mansions etc...I work just a few days each month and know that I should be happy that I can make more than most in those few days. I know God wants me home too, because that is where my heart is. not work. Hugs and prayers, Amy

jtcosby said...

This too is my goal. I can't seem to figure it out. Contentment is what I seek and God is the only way I will get there. Thank you for sharing. I understand...and for the record, I completely agree. I've crunched the numbers too...its not even logical.