Monday, February 26, 2007

Today...

I have several goals today. I hit a low point last night, and without going into a lot of detail about it, I have made these goals.

1. Laundry (I usually do this on Mondays.)
2. Clean my bathroom
3. No T.V. for me or Luke until the kids get home.
4. No computer unless Luke is asleep.
5. Learn how to play with my kids.

When I turned the T.V. off this morning, Luke was already saying, "Mama, show." I thought to myself how sad it was that he didn't know what else to do to fill his day without the television being on. This is the most important thing I will do today. I am not sure I know how to play with them, or if they will even want me to play with them; it will feel pretty new to both of us. But nevertheless, that is my goal.

Thanks for being interested in my journey. It keeps me accountable more than you know. I don't ever want to pretend to be something I am not, and lately, I have found myself doing just that. Why is it so hard to be honest about our struggles? I don't know the answer to that, but I am going to try and not put on my mask. We all struggle, whether it is behind closed doors or not. Why not share our struggles and help each other by letting us know we are not alone? Isn't that what Christ would want from his church? Anyway, that is my two cents for the day.

1 comment:

jtcosby said...

I am with you...and finding myself on my computer right now is making me mad at myself so this will be short. I too want to learn to play with my kids. So now, I am going to go to the kitchen, sit at the table and make something with playdough. thanks for sharing, you are totally NOT alone.